[slight vent] overprotective parents suck so bad

so, ive spent most of my life in my room; im sure most people spend a significant portion of their time there, but sometimes i wonder if ive spent more then most people.. id hazard to guess that i have, considering my life situation 

my mom is pretty over-protective of me- now, i dont think that being extra careful about your childs wherabouts are a bad thing ! i think its important to care about your childs well-being, especially when you see so much horrible shit on the news ab crime and pedophilia almost daily.  but i do think my mom takes it pretty far sometimes- my mom purposefully didnt let me go to a friends birthday party in 4th grade, even though the only other people who wouldve gone were people i knew from school and their parents.. i still have to ask permission to just walk outside (away from the house,) and im a fully grown adult now ! 

i used to go on walks really early in the morning, before they were awake just so i could get out of the house.. but now that we have one of those doorbells with a camera built into it, i havent been able to at all  i know that doesnt sound like a big deal to most (maybe even preferable,) but with:

1. my pre-existing social issues due to my autism/bpd/ocd, and
2. my lack of social circles in real life (i have 3 friends irl,)

getting out of the house on my own helped me feel way more comfortable and safe in public- the moment i wasnt able to get out as much, my paranoia surrounding strangers or freak accidents happening to me got bad again... being forced to stay inside unless i ask (and i get told no 9/10) is actively making my life worse, and that knowledge eats at me sometimes  (doesnt help that we used to go out more when i was younger, and didnt realize how important spending time away from home is..)

the fact my parents treat me like im crazy when i ask if i can do something doesnt help either- the audacity to act confused when i ask if i can go to the mall, or go to the grocery store with them, or if we can go walk down the nearby forest trail, when they are THE REASON i have to ask in the first place makes me so frustrated !!  if youre confused ab why im asking, then why do you make me do it!!! its so stupid..im so, so grateful for the times i can go out, though- even when my parents get confused when i still use my phone when i go out (im talking to my spouse ab how happy i am that im out of the house,) or dont understand why i would want to go out (they seem to forget that they HAVE to leave sometimes, and im not even allowed to do so in the first place,) my friends always try hard to connect with my in-person, and im so thankful i have that.  i have almost monthly hangouts with them, i go to the mall with one of my best friends every few months, and- through some brilliant stroke of luck, im being allowed to go on a 3 day trip away from home this month !!!  no supervision, no strings attached; just me, one of my friends, and one of their friends on our own during a 3 day con event..... its the sort of escape from home i havent had in years, and i can hardly contain my excitement !!!!!  its only in a week, and i cant wait; look out world, here comes ray!