big art dump of things im really proud of !

 howdy howdy, blog readers !  its been a while, huh? sorry for my prolonged internet absence; i gave a vague explanation on spacehey, but tl;dr i was doing some deep self-analysis and introspection for the past few months, and while there were some pretty low lows, ive never felt higher mood-wise then i do right now !!! its an insane feeling to know that ive, for the most part, fully accepted and loved myself   i hope everyone gets to experience feeling like this, at some point in their life...

anyways, this post isnt about my feelings (although i may make an entry about that  ) this is an art dump, and if its art u want, then its art youll get !!!!!!! 
ill be posting the art by the subject/topic, and not in chronological order; i have a super weird workflow, so its easier for me to bounce back and forth between topics, rather then squeezing every last bit of inspiration i have for one thing and then moving onto the next thing  especially considering some of these art pieces directly contribute to the making of other art pieces, its gonna be a little all over the place when it comes to what i talk about, so bear with me !!

quick note: all of these pieces use a pixelated brush. to view these in the best quality, open them in a new tab (ideally on pc !  )

small update-- i have a spacehey now !!!

doing a quick blog post, since i dont have much else to say-- i have a SpaceHey account now ! don't worry, ill still be uploading stuff here too; my Spacehey is mainly gonna be for shorter info. dumps/vents, interacting with other ppl who like my interests and smaller one-off art posts !  one reason i didnt update my blog for so long is bc i didnt wanna fill it with a bunch of short/less significant thoughts, but my spacehey is perfect for that sorta stuff !!!

browser games are fun and i miss them: part 2 :D

howdy yall !!! im back-- sorry for my impromptu blog break; a combination of focusing more on applying for jobs, a dip in my mental health, and general forgetfulness left me unable to make any posts but im back now! and i wanna continue my little browser game explanation series, because i think its really fun and i like explaining things 

i had my first interview & completely forgot to talk about it (oops!)

so, after the con was over and the week of the con ended, i decided to take job searching more seriously; it wasnt that i didnt apply to anything before, but i struggled to incorporate it into my routine, making my job hunt a much longer process  for a few days straight, i spent several hours searching on linkedin, going through listing after listing, filling in so many applications (did you know you can apply for walmart locations/positions in bulk? because i do now,) often using most of my free time to look and apply.

it, for the most part, hasnt shown any fruits of my labor... aside from one singular interview 

[sensitive topic mentions] browser games are fun and i miss them: part 1!

growing up as a socially inept child, the internet- and specifically online games, were one of the big ways i connected with the outside world. it was so fun getting to customize my own character, roaming around a digital space made for people my age, and playing minigames/doing tasks for rewards !  my favorite was definitely animal jam (though i did dabble in a bit of club penguin, and i think ourworld? my memories of that second one are fuzzy; i didnt go on it nearly as much as the other two..)

no matter how hard some people will try to push the idea, i really dont think having a space specifically for kids attracts pedophiles more then any other place that is kid-specific; this is my specific experience and wont apply to everyone, but before i was around 12 any/all brushes i had with creepy adults were all irl, and any adults i met in online spaces were very polite !! (thats very likely just me getting lucky, though, esp since i had more bad experiences with online weirdos in middle school )

now that im an adult and have watched the once thriving browser game scene die before my eyes, ive gotten really nostalgic for them, in recent times....  but luckily, ive managed to find a small handful of browser games that are functional and rather new ! at least 2 of them are still actively worked on, and the last one has a bit of code rotting, but is still completely playable  join me as i infodump about each for fun in a little series, teehee

questions for future me: responses !

 hello hello, im back from my trip!  its now time for me to answer all the questions i left for future me- who is now.. current me? whatever, im sure you get it lmao  

questions for future me!!

so, like i mentioned in my previous rambling post (the one about overprotective parents,) i mentioned that i was going to a con without any parental supervision soon.. since thats in ab 3 days, i thought it might be fun to ask myself some questions to answer after the cons over !!!  itll be a nice way to remember what my state of mind was like when i went, as well as something i can look back on to remember the trip  (i love having tangible/visible reminders of the things ive done..... i have pretty bad memory issues, and it helps me feel more 'real,' so to speak

Kagami Kawaiine Papercraft Template!

 

i edited the original miku papercraft template and turned it into kagami kawaiine, a derivative made to parody low effort weeaboo designs !! this was mainly for myself (and the overall quality reflects that,) but i figured id post it jic  

if you want her to have the drawings in her hair like the og design of her, you can draw them yourself in ms paint, or with markers/colored pencils  to put the little wings on her socks, make a small cut in the sides of her legs and then slide them in (before folding, so its more structurally sound !) put a small dot of liquid glue (or coat one side with a glue stick,) and then fold the small white flap glue-side down

i had to size it down for formatting purposes, but you can find the full sized version here!

[slight vent] overprotective parents suck so bad

so, ive spent most of my life in my room; im sure most people spend a significant portion of their time there, but sometimes i wonder if ive spent more then most people.. id hazard to guess that i have, considering my life situation 

[BLOOD WARNING AT END OF POST] mini art dump

posting some art so i can make the art label !! most of these are a couple months old, ive been having some artblock as of recently  i cant wait to make art im proud of again- maybe i should post some of my favorite pieces from this year..

welcome to my blog !!!

howdy, anyone who sees this !! my name is ray, and i made this blog to document my life, my art, and my thoughts in a public space 

im not a big fan of modern social media- i dont care about followers, or views, or likes and really hate the sort of environments places like twitter and tiktok have developed over the years.. its absolutely exhausting seeing drama and stupid, rude weirdos get hundreds of thousands of likes every day